How's your week been?
It's been so hectic for me. I've been in the process of buying a house this week and it's filled me with a lot of stress and anxiety. There's a very steep learning curve to this process. There's lawyers, banks, agents, homeowners, and you and everything has its part in the puzzle which can create for some pretty confusing and time sensitive situations. Add that whole process with me planning a trip out of town for the weekend, and you get the perfect storm.
As this storm brewed, I felt like I'd lost my way, and I didn't feel "in control", whatever that means. I guess what I'm trying to say is that there was a lot of fog. I'll be honest. I couldn't keep up my meditating all week. I was going from house showings to bank meetings to setting up calls with lawyers, all right after my day job which itself is in a hectic and stressful time what with some project deliverables we're working on.
All of this got me thinking about how life tends to happen in cycles, and that there's a constant shift of balance that we experience. Nothing can be totally balanced all the time. Everything has balance; even balance. That means your experience of life has to be unstable form time to time. As unfortunate as all of it is, it's nice to experience, in a weird sort of way. I've said it before: experiencing a variation of emotions helps you appreciate life in all of its fullness. Yeah, this week has been difficult for me. I couldn't keep up meditating, I was exhausted and woke up feeling exhausted, I was scatterbrained. But now that this week is coming to a close, I can reflect on it and pull some lessons from it.
And the lesson I pulled from all of this is that life happens in waves. Stressful times come and go just like peaceful times. There's nothing we can really do about what gets thrown at us except get through it and steer ourselves to the goal we're working towards. Sometimes we get knocked off course, but when that happens, it's important to get back up and try again.
Keep riding those waves.
Have a great weekend, I'll see you Monday.