Moving On

I never knew my unhappiness.
It felt like a stiff neck.
Replaying old tapes
Showed me just
How far I’d fallen.

Hearing myself on loop
Writing the same things
Truly seeing, for the first time
With newborn’s eyes
That I was stuck
And am now free

Wow.

Birds are singing
Spring is here
Buoyantly bouncing
And giving chase to new ideas
I am a Phoenix
Risen from my old ashes
And I’m taking flight
Majestically.

It's All Good On A Day Off

When you’re on a day off
Stop.
Time is an illusion
We all subscribe to its constant confusion
Let it go
Your bad days will come
But the sum of your experience
Is positive, so let it show
Go slow today
It’s okay to kick your feet up
And to watch Netflix in your beat up
Comfy sweater
Sure, some days are bad but it gets better
You have a community of people
Who give you immunity from the evil
That you can’t always hide
Outside I see a gray sky
I don’t ask why the weather is like God’s cry
I just ask for more time to sit by
To watch the snow climb
To drink coffee and spend time
Reading, writing, being together
Because I find peace in this simple pleasure

Vice

Oh baby all my limbs are buzzing
My lips pursed in delight
Ecstatic in this artificial light
For a moment I am alright
My masks off,
My chains dropped
The creeping vines of
Ever-questioning madness stopped

The taste of juniper lingers
Sugar remains stuck to my fingers
I play my repertoire of dope-ass soul singers
And I ice this out
Rid this doubt
Ride the wave of "okay" throughout
Im sorry, I’ve been robotic
Tightened bolts, I must stop it
Oil my hinges, fill the syringes
With a smokey hit of Johnny’s Walking

Oh this fire heats from within
Oh this fire forgives my sins
Oh this fire lifts my soul from it’s depths
Oh this fire brings me down for a rest
It hurts my head, and churns my guts
But that’s tomorrow. Today, go nuts.